If you're wondering why I'm obsessed with numbers, don't... I have ALWAYS been like that. I count down EVERYTHING... when I was in my halo (I broke my neck when I was 19, in a car accident) I swear, I had a calendar with slash marks and numbers all over it counting down the 3 1/2 months until I could get that darn thing off... halos on earth, I hope, are nothing like halos in Heaven!!!
So on my calendar are two sets of numbers right now... 1 set that is counting down until I don't watch little ME's friend anymore, or the last day of school, whichever way you want to look at it, and the other set is now counting down the days until Ricky returns home... technically, it's next Friday, but in my number world, it's 9 more days... and i get really excited about getting into the single digits when counting... sick, I know, just bear with me... we all have funny little quirks, whether we are willing to admit to them is something altogether different... I have quite a few, but the number obsession is a willingly admitted one... Talk to Ricky about the others...
ok, so I woke up this morning and realized I still have a skin cancer spot... I prayed last night that if God would let this pass, that would be most appreciative... But than I remembered what I blogged about a few nights ago and reminded myself, that I can handle this! God knows I can handle this and He will give me rest...
But do you ever get that feeling that sometimes, just sometimes, when it rains it pours? I mean, you're going along and things seem so good and suddenly something happens that kind of stops you in your tracks and you think back to the last time something stopped you in your tracks and you really can't think of anything? Like, you have been having it soooo good and all of the sudden LIFE HAPPENS? Yea, that's what I'm experiencing right now... I mean, don't get me wrong, I don't go around thinking nothing ever happens to me, I'm so lucky, yadda, yadda, yadda... but in the grand scheme of life, things have been good... Then bombs go off...
ok, maybe not bombs, but you know what I mean... suddenly you have your husband leaving for 2 weeks, and you're happy for him, you know that the class is only offered once a year and only 10 agents get in it, but at the same time, your ticked off because you are left at home with the 5 kids, (one of whom is rather difficult... oh wait, that's me) and you signed on to chair the teacher appreciation week because you feel badly for not doing anything since school started, and you know you have a few doctors appointments you'll have to somehow figure out how to bring two babies and a really obnoxious 3 year old with you... So you start getting a little stressed and think, "how the heck..." but you remind yourself that God is with you and you'll be ok...
Well, the rain is literally comin' down here, i can't remember the last time i saw the sun for more than 5 minutes, and I feel like it's all connected...
There is a storm and I need to hold onto my umbrella and brace myself for it... but my "spiritual" umbrella isn't one you can see... it's invisible, but you can feel it... He wraps his arms around me and covers my head to protect me... I just have to keep reminding myself of that!
There is no burden out there that is bigger than HIM! I just have to remember that. So we'll get through this, and yea, God didn't make the spot go away while I slept... (I know you used to pray like that, too... sometimes the inner child still wants to believe like that!!)But He did give me greater wisdom into this whole crazy mess we're a part of... LIFE... it's hard, but it's temporary, and I'll be honest, yesterday reminded me that we are not IMMORTALS! There is a much greater, better, happier, loving place we are all destined for...
Ahhhhhh... doesn't that make it all good???
God bless you...
I posted a pic of Little ME's new trick... enjoy... ;)
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